I don't want to complain or anything...

...but...I really feel gipped.

I don't know... I met my long lost friends from years past today... Man, I didn't recognize who the heck they were...but that's beside the point... What really got to me was that it appeared that, except for me, these guys had kept in touch over the years. Leo and Esteban seemed to be pretty good friends. Esteban imformed me that he had recently talked to Daniel who is in New Jersey of all places. Leo and Guillermo have some kind of connection; I think they might actually be extended relatives. And so on... So here's my question: Where the heck was I? In nearly fifteen years, I had not spoken a single word to these guys, while they apparently had grown up together.

You can imagine that I was a little envious. I felt like I had lost friends. And these are friends literally from the womb. As far back as you can remember, these guys were wreaking havoc and pretending to be the effing Thundercats...by your side. Yeah, that's what I did back in the day, and I'm sure I made a pretty damn good Thundercat. And I'm sure, I'm absolutely sure, that there were many more adventures...only my stupid memory fails me...

And to be stripped away from all that... I don't know... It's harsh...

And you can't really be reconnected to something like that... You can't just re-join the posse... Things have changed... Relationships forged, connections lost... So, here I was, the odd man out... I couldn't even speak in Spanish, my so-called native tongue...

These were the thoughts running through my head today. It was a funeral and a man had passed away, and I was thinking only of myself. Sigh...

So, what do you say to someone you haven't seen in a decade and a half who has tragically lost their grandfather?

I don't know. I didn't say anything at all...